Between the moon and a chevy

I am back.

It's not good when you are afraid to face one of your roommates because you didn't feel like picking up toilet paper. Sorry meg, but sometimes you can be a little overbearing. I know I have to do it...I just don't feel like the trip now.

Survival skills was neato this weekend. I had a great time getting to know the old staff a little better. Some of the stuff I learned about water, fires, and shelters is amazing. I'll be writing it all down in my notebook so that I don't forget them....but that's if I remember to write them in the notebook. What a vicious circle I live in ;o) I came back today with mud and charcoal covering my face to make me blend in with the environment more. Um...I don't think it worked too well. Other than that it was really cold! I was freezing my ass off the whole trip.

Tonight I had dinner with the 'rents and Nana and pop pop. They were just soo much fun! I love my grandparents...they are the coolest people I know. I just hope one day to be in love the way they are and to have the same positive outlook on life that they do. Today my Nana was crying when she left because we weren't going to see her till after spring break. It broke my heart! She brought over tons of mom's baby stuff for us to go through together. It was so funny seeing mom's pictures, and report cards...there was even one on there from Loyola College. LoL. My sister is going to homecoming Saturday with a bunch of friends. I am really excited for her, and want to come up and surprise her for the afternoon. I hope I am not going away Saturday...although I was looking forward to going to a museum...this is much more important. My sis also said something unusual tonight...she complimented my dad on the way he laughs. I thought that was soo cute. She is really growing up quickly lately. Normally she would be smart assed about it and rude, but tonight she went out of her way to say something nice, and I thought that was just so beautiful! I am so lucky to have a sister like Whitney who loves me, and who I can talk to and joke around with. LoL, she's a great kid....well, actually she's becoming quite the lady.

Okay, so I am not going white water rafting this weekend, change of plans...i am now do a survival skills weekend at Travis' farm. It is going to be kick ass...getting to know some of the old staff a little better. Oh, Ken got married last weekend. And for his wedding gift, the new staff is getting him a kayaking oar, signing all of our names, and writing "incase you get up the creek" I thought it was a cute idea, although a bit corny.
Right now I am getting ready to head up to recher to see spinfire, drip, anf Fidel! It's gonna be an awsome night!

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Okay, here is the much needed update on my crazy life. Yes, I dropped my accounting class...grrrrr it was driving me crazy with all the work needed. I changed my major minor choice again...surprise surprise....i am def. thinking about majoring in Business Administration, with a concentration in International Business, and a minor in Poli Sci. Of course I have yet to take a poli sci class, but I know I will love it. SO next semester I have to take all the intro classes so that when I go to Thailand, I can take a class or two on thai politics and culture.
This past weekend was awsome! there was some confusion as to whether we were leaving Thurs night or friday morning, so we were all ready to go, and didnt end up leaving till fri. It was cool though. Some of us went to Paper Moon for a late night snack, and then Omar came and crashed here for the night. We went backpacking from Pine Grove Furnace in PA to Cadonia state park, which is a total of about 20 miles. Of course nothing ever goes all that smoothly and the water sources marked on the map were all dried up. So we had to hike to water with only 3/4 of a nalgene left....we ended up hiking an additional 12 miles after lunch. Fun stuff huh. Actually I was thrilled at the adventure and couldnt wait to get started. I had a little incident on the first day: I tripped over a rock while i was looking at the beautiful colors on the trees and fell flat on my face. I scraped up my hand pretty good, and my leg is thoroughly bruised. It was really funny though looking back on it now. Later that night around the circle while we were waiting for the cooks to finish up making dinner I recieved what I think to be one of the best compliments I have ever gotten in my whole entire life. We were joking around and picking out animals for eachother and Omar turned to me and said he thought I was a lioness. I was so shocked at that, and then he was explaining how I had this certain power around me and the way I present myself and my comfortability with guys. I honestly can't even remember what he said because I was just so blown away by the cute way he was saying it. It is nice to know someone is thinking about you when you dont know it. Of course that was the theme for the weekend, and I later told Corey how awsome she was, and what she brought to the group and all that jazz. I think that the people in OAE are just so unbelievably supportive and understanding. It's just a wonderful environment to get yourself into.
Steph pulled me to the side the other day and asked if I would take her place in leading a white water rafting trip for this weekend. Of course I said yes right away and am thrilled that she would even ask me in the first place when i havent even finished up my training yet. So I get to lead my very first trip this weekend! I am soooo excited. So if anyone wants to go white water rafting call me up!!!

Other than that....I am going crazy...not like its unusual. So if i am acting strange lately...there are reasons behind it...i am not usually THIS wierd. ahhhh soo much stuff on my mind. I have way tooo large of a tendency to overanalyze things and then ignore the important things if they aren't the easiest way to go about it. I have sooo many problems. Sometimes I just think i need an independent person I can pour my problems out to and then tell me what i should do...or at least give me some medication. Anyone have a number for a good shrink?

Tonight was a good, although very unproductive day. I made a great new friend....thanks steph for taking us out! I got to see the "softer side" of Tony in the laundry room, and am sad that he might be transfering. Hung out with the OAE croud today in the office and was being social --unheard of concept, this social thing. Had a great "cheering up" conversation with Marty this morning...thanks babe for helping me out and calming me down! And actually survived on 2 and a 1/2 hours of sleep....passed my midterm for MIS (hopefully), and had a great talk with my Accounting Professor. Today turned out to be not as bad as I thought it was going to be.
This weekend is going to be lots of fun! I am going to Kings Dominion with the guys again just like last year...hopefully I won't fall off of my chair this year though ;o) I can't wait to hang out with the guys....its been ages!

Tony and I were talking about all sorts of stuff tonight and he told me that I am a social person despite what I actually am. This is really nice that he thinks that, because I have been trying hard lately to go the extra step to get to know people. It's nice to know that something I am doing is paying off. I now realize that if I was my normal shy self, I would have never gotten to know a lot of great people this year. And honestly I thank Marty for that. In Plato's Symposium, there is the concept of loving another because they have qualities that you do not and wish to attain. I think that definately explains my immense attraction to Marty. He is funny, loud, personable, and has a great positive outlook on things. I think some if it is wearing off on me...or he has just made me more comfortable with myself so that I can be an outgoing person. I have so many hidden dreams and thoughts, I believe I am just now expressing them and making them a reality. I love you Marty

blah...i have a lot to write about. Later

learned how to kayak yesterday...suck at it. My nose feels violated.

i got in a huge fight with my dad tonight....feeling like shit now....frustrated about school and everything.
Marty made me feel more secure, and joey is making me laugh....i love my friends!

Well I just got back from babysitting and now I am off to an OAE meeting then I think Omar planned on hitting up paper moon afterwards. I am siked! I have so much fun with those guys. I just have no time to do any work any more. So of course I think my grades are suffering. Hmmm I guess I should get some work done.
My dad is going in for another session of laser eye surgery wed. but he is still procrastinating getting surgery on his back. I can understand completely why he has a fear of hospitals...i mean with what all happened to his dad, but this needs to be done, and the longer he waits, the worse the problem is going to get. I am going to call him up tomorrow and see what is going on with that. He frustrates me sometimes.
I just ate ants on a log....how long has it been since i made that last? ... 1st grade, maybe 2nd hehe

So this weekend was wonderful just like the last. I am finally finished my rock climbing training after many grueling weekends of tearing my fingers up and shoving my feet into small ass shoes. I can definately go out whenever I want to know, and I am also allowed to borrow all the equipment from the OAE office. I am feeling so powerful and amazing now though. Just being able to say that I can do intermediate climbs and do some crazy ass set-ups gives me the goosebumps. Imagining me rock climbing just seems laughable, but I actually quite enjoy it. And it is something I thought I would be just horrible at....you know, the whole "afraid of heights" thing. So I am still alive and and in tact for the most part - Only one small boo boo I recieved after chugging down tuna fish water......dont ask ;o) The people I am training with are just so wonderful. I definately made some really great friends! I took a few digital pics of the weekend and will put the link up on the page later.
There are jsut soo many awsome things to remember about this weekend..... Hearing the birds wings flapping in the air, ben's fire, the seductive shit, fart baseball, tuna fish juice, twizzlers and hummus, ryan's jumping jacks, craig's overhang climb, my straddling a small ledge 100 ft in the air, repelling (bad memory), omar's tai chi, ben's corny jokes, the fire, ed and ken's inside jokes, crazy cor and her silly stories, getting lost in the woods at midnight.....just so many little things. I think I laughed more this weekend than I have in teh whole last month. We have soo much fun together! I jsut wish that marty was into some of this stuff so that I could show him what I learn. I am so proud of myself for doing this, and I want him to realize how good I am so that he can be proud too. Really I just want to show off, but what is wrong with that??


I LOVE MY ROOMATE!!!!