Between the moon and a chevy

I am working on creating a Guestbook!

Don't ever say to someone..."you know no one really likes you"...even if your joking, for it leads into way too much thinking and over analization.

I had the wierdest dream last night...all of my dreams are wierd, but this was a super wierd one. It had to do with moving back into college dorms, and it was like a big house and there were all these people I didn't know, then I ran into people I went to elementry school, and just wierdness going on... Maybe this is just my subconscience trying to remind me I need to get a hold of Meg and Meghan. I should write them a letter and send pictures.

I have been very paranoid lately for no good reason at all. Everything that is being planned or going on, I am questioning too much. I am always asking myself whether it has an underlying thought or reason to it. And I feel really bad about snapping at Marty the other night, but I just go crazy sometimes doubting myself. After certain events that will not be mentioned for fear of bringing back bad bad memories, I have this constant nagging feeling that people are talking behind my back, or people are just pretending to like me, or who knows...I am unbelievably paranoid right now. I am even questioning the intents of Marty, and that is just wrong.
So I have this problem with over-analyzation, but that is not all. I also constantly think about "what ifs" and "what could have happened". I am slowly but surely driving myself to a mental breakdown. I just think too much. Why can't I just fly through life by the seat of my pants only worrying about when the next party is or who I am going to sleep with the next night....my life is too complicated soemtimes. But here I go whining again, when I have a great life ahead of me...and presently, once I get things sorted out.

Awww...the puppies are playing outside...so off I go to amuse myself

So it's finally time again for a new layout...check me out again in a few to see whats going on.

Parking at Loyola is costing me $250 bucks....what the shiznit is that about???

I got my first paychecks from the restaurant today...I got money!!!!

So my dad actually invited me out for dinner with him last night AND tonight! I cant get over it. Maybe its becasue mom might find out that he hasnt even been feeding me while she's been gone. Hehe. At least he is behaving himself this time. Well, as far as I know. Last time mom left for vacation and left dad and me, he brought over a guy barely older than me from work and got totally smashed with him. And I, being the little snitch that I am, tattled like hell on his ass. *lol*

It is hot outside....too hot to go lay out, and I don't feel like going to let my car cool down so I can take it to the club to work out. I am a lazy bitch. But I like the way you get warm down to the bones during summertime. My hands don't even get cold. And I love all the fruit and flowers all over the place. Today is one of those days that you wake up craving to eat watermelon in the shade of your backyard spitting the seeds in the grass, and having your yourger siblings talk about the seeds growing in your stomach. Ahhh memories.

Ahhh I made about $10 at work today. The restaurant was dead :o( So I have the rest of the day to sit around on my ass and play with my computer YEA!!!

I found a really cool uploading site atgrovestreet.com. Check it out.

So I am finally understanding about 1/2 of this web cam thingy. I'll be figuring out the rest this afternoon.

I need to get my page linked up to some other sites, but I should really fix it up some more first....shouldn't I?

I am missing my long entries on here. Sigh. I just don't have the time to sit around for hours on my computer like I did during the school year.
Oh yea, I dropped my phone again. This is the second time in a week now and it is al scrached to bits. For those of you who do not know yet that I do not have my own phone yet, get your head out of your asses and call me up! Hehe. The number is 443-243-2177. Yea I know its one of those fucked up 443 area codes. Who figures that they run out of number combinations. I mean, if I can remember back to high school math, the 7 different numbers after the area code leaves billions of possible combinations. Well, then you can only have the 836 or 638or 879 beginnings here in bel air. Damn, now my point is pretty much ruined.

So my car is finally fixed....hopefully. And I think the service writer was hitting on me! How wierd is that?! And Marty was in there saying that because i was his GF, i should be able to get the S&S discount. Damn...wierdness. Kinda makes my head all big though. I turns out to be some temperature thing-a-ma-bobber that makes my car start funny. This doesnt make any sense to me, but hey, if its running right, i am not going to be the one to complain. And come to think of it, I am going to write a nice letter to compliment the mechanic on the job he did. Maybe it'll get him a raise or something.

I have that Train song: Drops of Jupiter in my head. La la la fried chicken and la la la....

My left nipple hurts :o( I think I slept on my boob wrong, and the stud poked into it. Yucky. This is only like the second time it has ever bothered me before...the first being when I first got it done over a year ago.

I still can't figure out my web cam....damn computer shit. I am too slow for all this new and up-in-coming technology. By the time I figure out how to use the stuff the are either obsolete ir not working anymore....ie napster and the burner.

Anyone know of any good napster like sites to download music off of? I know they are out there. Let me know PLEASE!

so i put up the pictures from dc on ofoto.com finally. And only ryan has checked them out so far....wheres the support guys?
Marty is sunburnt to a crisp. Lets see how he feels tomorrow.

I just got a letter from my roomate Meagan, who is the sweetest cutest thing alive, and sent me an awsome picture of the two of us. I will have to put it online shortly. It was from the dispatch concert we went too. She wrote me a long letter letting me know how she is doing and all...now i just have to remember to write her one back.

I have soooo many bills and tuition payments to make that i am late on. When am I going to start making money at my job? I made about 300 this week, which is decent, but not good enough. Hmmm, what to do? another job perhaps? No, i don't have the time.
You know those ads in classrooms and colleges offering $18 an hour for summer work. No telemarketing. I need to call that up. Yea. That is what i will do.

I showed my grandmother how to use her cd rewrite that she has had for almost two years now. Well at least she is finally learning how to do it. She only uses her computer to stor her recipes, play games, and download screensavers. She is hilarious. and has a wonderful top of the line dell computer labtop. i am jealous.

HAPPY FATHERS DAY to all you dads out there....especially mine. - who i do not think even opened my present yet grrrrrr

Mmmmm I love sex

I just got a web cam!!! Its a shame I cant figure out how to work it yet. And there is NO manual grrrrrr

I can barely keep my eyes open, so off to the tube I go...and hopefully catch some Zzzzz's

Haha, I love giving sex advice to people. Its so fun to talk about. Some guys just don't have a clue how woman work. And then others know too well.

I have been looking up study abroad information lately. I definatley want to go to Thailand, but am also considering Rotterdam, netherlands or Spain. The problem is that Thailand is a Fall program only, and I want to go away for Spring semester too. Where should I go? Ahhh too much to decide! I should be worrying about other things right now.

So work is coming along slowly but surely. The babysitting I am doing is bringing in the best money so far though.

Last friday I had some people over and we had a cook out on the grill with some nasty NOT ALL BEEF burgers. I don't know what the other meat in there was from, and I dont want to know either. *GAG* THen Saterday night was a blast! After work I picked up my sis and Whit and went down to Recher for Fidel's CD release party. Brickfoot was there and I missed Spinfire and Lennex, but its all good cause I still had a great time. It was really cool how many people showed up. I made a fool out of myself dancing most likely, but did it anyway. And Marty had too much to drink, as well as ryan, but where is the surprise there? LOL hehe
I am gonna fiddle around on the comp some more, but I'll put an interesting update in later tonight.